He sat across the table secretly terrified as watched her ordering their meal. He sat their terrified knowing if he stared too long his world would start to fade away. Anytime he was with her this was a danger he faced. Despite the obvious danger he would sometimes play a game and stare long enough till the world around her was just a blur of meaningless shapes. Really he couldn’t help it, but he knew if he stared too long she would recognize the look hopeless love. Who wouldn’t stare, women like her have a gravity of their own, and it’s so easy to fall into orbit around them. He never really tried to define this attraction, and it wasn’t until this very moment that he realized how perfection could be a burden. Sometimes she fought this relentless avalanche of never ending desire and affection that always seemed to follow her. He acknowledge and accepted the fact that he wasn’t the only one that would fall into orbit around her. He knew he wasn’t the first or last that would fall in the trap of loving her. She never tried to hurt anyone. He knew she’d break many hearts, even his, but he never blamed her. It was due to no fault of her own. Her only crime was existence. He could see the moment they met that she found her existence exhausting. He watched time and time again as she tried to fight it. Sometimes she fought with words, sometimes with silence, sometimes she turned the fight inward, but nothing, not even her, could stop him from loving her. No matter how hard she pushed his love always found a way to secretly grow. He was far past the point of no return, he past it two seconds after he met her, and it was never a thought to look back. Their food came in a cloud of delicious aromas. The sizzling meat, the steaming rice, and the endless assortment of sides over loaded his senses. Things were always bigger and brighter in her presence. Reality took on a whole new meaning in her eyes. These are words he could never tell her. The truth of it all would be too much for her heart to handle. She’d run back into her shell,and all these wonderfully decadent moments would fade to memories instantly. She had him living every day on the edge between his dreams and reality, and it was terrifying. Her beauty split his reality in two, but somehow this love, a love deep and ancient kept him strong. As they ate and talked about the random moments of life that surrounded their day he eventually gave in and let his world fade away. He knew he was crazy for loving her the way he did. He couldn’t deny sanity and reason would tell him to run far and fast, but he was never one to choose logic over love. They eventually finished their meal. He walked her to her car and said his goodbyes. He stood their watching her drive away, the silhouette of her car framed by the setting sun and he stood their until her car was just a shapeless shadow on the horizon. As he walked to his car he promised himself one day these two realities would fade to one.