Tonight I can’t stop thinking of you. I tried writing, but my imagination keeps falling back to thoughts of you. Please don’t dwell on anything I am about say, just let me indulge this selfish pleasure of mine. Let me love you without guilt for a few minutes. You are not to blame in any way, this wound is self inflicted. My love for you is not fueled by false hope. Despite all the reason in the world my heart refuses to break. Time does nothing to fade my conviction. Even if I never hear your voice again, if I never see those eyes again you would still continue to haunt my dreams. Tnis sounds dramatic, but you have to know that this desire, this hunger to love you does not fade. It’s part of who I am. How do I know this? I’m not really sure, but I just know I do. You tell me you aren’t who I see you to be, but I see you perfectly. In you exist these dualities that make you so unique, so rare and so extremely beautiful. You heart is so strong, but at the same time it can be so timid and scared. You can be so brave and in the same turn so insecure. Inside and out you are completely beautiful and yet so humble. You’ve been hurt so much but your heart keeps on loving. According to the laws of the universse you should not exist, but you do. All of this contradiction blends into the most amazing and complete woman I have ever loved. Don’t you dare think that I love you just because you are different. Most men may only get that far, but I need more. I love you because you redine love for me, and somehow by just existing you heal my world and make it whole. My heart never completely worked until I met you. It’s truly undefinable. Just knowing you makes me a better man. You give me strength, love, understanding, vision, but most importantly you have taught me patience. Loving you requires patience, I say this not because you frustrate me at time, but because the art of loving you requires patience. You have a lifetime of secrets to share, and it requires a lifetime of love to be worthy of these secrets. Once inside you its hard to not to want everything, but I know taking to much, to quickly is not fair to you. Do I feel lucky to love you? Yes I do. Do I want more? I will always want more, but tonight I am feeling extremely grateful for having such a rare beautiful object for my affection.

Gratefully yours,
J